Monday 23 January 2012

; January, the month full of awesomeness and sorrows.

Hey there (: Sorry for not blogging in a bit. There's just so many things going on in my mind but there's nothing I can do about it. Anyway, January has been awesome and somewhat a depressing month.

I'll start off with the good part like everyone does :)

According to the lunar calendar, 2012 is the year of the dragon and begins on the 23rd of January and aiqnifnfodijkeoqp. Okay, let's just skip that boring part. Lol. I don't even think it makes sense so, heh. Anyway, my cousin, Amy from New Zealand and my other cousin, Lynn from KL are coming back! :D I was exxxciteeeddd to the max to hang out with them because we only meet like only 3 times a year :( Haha, see the photo above? This was taken when we were on our way to our relative's house. Later, we had our family gathering and lunch together. FYI, my grandma cooks the best food ever! I'll be heading to Ipoh tomorrow to visit my other relatives there...*fingers crossed* All these had made me forget bout the challenges I'm going through that month. :)

And now the bad part. I've been looking forward to the first day of secondary school and I thought that everything'd be great. Dressed up in new uniform, new hairstyle, with new schoolbag and everything else new, as I entered the school. Unfortunately, it's not what I expected....I was about to shed a tear when the teacher announced my name in the 3rd class. All my classmates from the 1st class last time are placed in the 1st and 2nd class...and left out me in that lower class? But seriously, I don't understand why I'm here. I've always been in the top 15 position constantly.

Sigh. I feel so lonely and dumb in that class....And recently, people judged me as a 'weak in studies student' based on the class I'm in....and I've seen smiling faces on those faces who were jealous of me. I can't really mix with others in this class simply because of the languages. As you can see, I'm an English-educated person and I'm really terrible in Bahasa. Moreover, I can't speak Chinese. All my classmates here speak only Bahasa, Chinese or Tamil. Ohgawd.

I don't like the teachers either. They only think that all the smart students are in the 1st class. Like whenever I wanna take part in a quiz or anything like that, they decline my request. That explains a lot, teachers are judgemental too. Everyone underestimates me. I don't know how to express my feelings but I'm really upset...

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Hey! Jenn here... :) I had a blog like...a year ago but I deleted it cuz I didn't have much time to blog. But now, I'll only blog when I have time or when I've got the mood. Why am I blogging again? Cuz Lynn forced me to :P But thats not the only reason. Sometimes, I wanna share to my family , cousins and friends about my life. So that they'll know me better. FYI : This blog is just like my diary :) Anyway, I'm still editing the layout and other stuff.

I am who I am. I'm pretty normal. I'm not perfect. I run into things, I trip, I spill food, I say stupid things. But that's just me :) What best describes me? I don't know... Everyone has different opinions. Some says nice. Some says quiet. Some says clumsy :P haha. I love art too but mainly sketching and shading. I don't really do art crafts or colouring or etc. I might upload some of my sketch :D Before I end this post, I'm proud to boast that I have a perfect God who loves the imperfect me :) Jesus is my Savior, not my religion.

Any questions? Ask me @ Formspring :)

Well.... I guess that's all for now. Gotta go. Bye!

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